untilgradschool

The types of jobs that you take and decide to be good at say a lot about a person and their character. I’ve managed to find my way into a reputable company that does market analytics with their software and instead of being on the marketing side where my PR degree and writing skills could go to use, I settled for a position in the software support department. I took this job because I decided to quite my last employer due to personal differences (nothing but love in the end, anxiety just pulsated through every nook and cranny of the old place and it started affecting me in a bad way). I had hesitant feelings about taking a job that mostly consisted of checking for data integrity and learning lots about computer operations. I don’t particularly like technology and its inner workings too much except for work processors like the kind I’m typing in now.

But, the learning curve wasn’t as long as I or my boss had expected and I’ve started to learn my job pretty thoroughly. I like the feeling of learning a new skill and using it regularly on the job. Here I am doing all sorts of interesting things on computers but it’s still not what I’m passionate about. I’m making a living out of this job and that’s okay for now. But would I really want to do it forever? Absolutely not. Even being surrounded by so many intelligent creatures who are involved in this market research software, I notice that I could probably thrive in several different aspects of this industry. The corporate marketing and PR world can provide some lucrative careers for people who get in early and learn as much as they can.

But it’s not writing. I’ve always wanted to write for a living. I’ve told myself that I would do what needed to be done until I can truly say I am a full time writer. I don’t want to give up on that dream. I also don’t want to give up on my dreams of moving about the country and world. I’ve felt a lot of security in certain parts of my life in the past few years and it has made me soft in some areas. I don’t feel as bold, daring and risk taking as I used to be. That’s not okay.

I feel like if I kept myself busy sans grad school degree I could be satisfied for quite a while. Developing my skills and acquiring knowledge are both very important to me. Gemini James has a manic side about him that desperately clamors for opportunities for self-improvement. Watching the world go buy un-affected just isn’t an option. The road towards enlightenment is in fact a road that one must travel. Being carried you have no control over your destiny. How is an aggressive approach not acceptable? Being an upstart you say? I am my mother’s son and my father’s offspring. A secretary and a carpenter made this and I shall continue to break the mold.